Not sure what to say.

So I just found out yesterday that my mom has cancer.  The C word.  Blah.  I am torn between wanting to write about this and wanting to keep it private – but right now feel like I might as well put my experiences out there and if I decide to delete or password protect later I can.

Here’s the deal – she went in for her three year pap test (yup now the recommendations are that if you are over 30 and have had 3 consecutive years of clean tests you can wait 2-3 years between paps – F-ing insurance is what I say – don’t listen to those recommendations and go ANNUALLY!) and they found Adenocarcinoma in the results of the test.  An ultrasound then discovered a mass that is hopefully “just” endometrial or cervical cancer.  We found this out Tue and there is an MD appointment set up for two THURSDAYS from now… 10 days!  Needless to say I freaked out.

Long story shortish – I pulled myself together – called the specialist’s office and managed to get her in for testing tomorrow so at least we will have some more results when we go to the MD in 8 days.  Now I am driving myself nuts by trying to decide if she should go to the clinic where she was referred for treatment (looks nice – has a board certified gyn oncologist) or the mega cancer care clinic locally that is NCI affiliated (has bazillions of programs and support for patients – including yoga and a knitting group, plus a generally good reputation in town).  I guess it’s always good to get a second opinion and through that we can decide what feels like the best fit.  I’ve been searching the Internet high and low for some guidance regarding one versus the other – but just can’t find anything.

Thankfully friends have been wonderfully supportive – not surprisingly so as I know I have fab friends!  The boyfriend has been great (his work too in knowing that he will have to be away to help with some things) and hopefully my work will be understanding too.

My eyes are a bit less swollen tonight then they were last night… but I am still fighting the urge to spin down into worry.

Oh yah – and thanks Cali for helping me to keep in mind that it helps to be nice and polite when you call the doc’s office to try to get them to get you a better appointment   Not sure I would have been as gentle without her example!

Think positive thoughts for us ok?