This is the first weekend in I don’t know how long that I have wanted to end so it would be Monday.
Monday at 1:30am we are scheduled to see another gyn onc. We saw someone Thursday at a local office affiliated with a great hospital in Seattle. I had high hopes. My hopes were a bit dashed by the fact that the MD was 45 min late for the appointment (despite the fact that we were his first appointment of the day), that he didn’t introuduce himself to me, and that he was not AT ALL gentle when examining mom in an area us women like to have treated gently. He was also rushed throughout the consultation, the office didn’t have a copy of the ultrasound report they needed (despite the fact that I had talked to the RN the week before to make sure they would get the report from the right place), and he didn’t really explain the surgery at all and said this was the only appointment we would have with him pre-op. He did seem like a smart guy and I got the feeling he would be a capable surgon.
Anyway we are hoping to have a more patient centered experience tomorrow. The place we are going to is a large clinic affiliated with some of the best hospitals in the area. They have a patient coordinator who has been great at answering my questions via email (LOVE THAT!) and they already for sure have the ultrasound report AND the actual films for viewing by their team (impressive compared to the disorganization and just looking at the report at the other doc). Plus when mom went there for her CT scan on Friday they gave her a heated blanket before and after and cookies and juice when she was done!
So doctor decisions aside I am going NUTS after hearing about all of the potential complications of surgery and the different types of cancer. I am a mess worrying that something will happen to her during surgery mostly. I was a mess about the prognosis related to the different cancers but mostly now I am freaking out about the surgery thing. It feels terrifying to know that she could go into surgery basically feeling fine and then the unspeakable happen. I am trying to remind myself that most women live through hysterectomy surgery – but some moments it feels difficult.
If you are reading this send some goot thoughts our way for a clear CT scan report and a positive Dr. appointment tomorrow ok?
SeattleKnitChick 